Shift To Now

I’ve had some pretty large shifts over the past few days.

Taking stock of where I am. Some very purposeful work with a friend of mine moving me further into my own surrender, some upcoming medicine work and a check in with a guide regarding taking my own practice and the work I offer to others a good deal further.

I also gave a talk to a small audience about my journey through “losing it all”, and ending up living in my car. This has been a great journey of finding deeper self awareness through this path. I would not do anything differently. 

I am God, each moment is absolutely loaded with potential for expansion. There is nothing to understand, there is nothing you need to manifest or change. 

I am God, each moment is absolutely loaded with potential for expansion.

But the pace of my awareness expanding is picking up and I am seeing clearer and clearer the payoff through being in the moment versus thinking. Once the payoff of daydreaming, fantasy, analysis is higher, or to be more accurate, once it takes us out of the discomfort of the present moment, we will take it. The desires, thoughts and dreams that previously enticed me are of less interest, unless they are actively in my present moment. If I am not living that reality, right here right now, then they may never come to fruition, or if I’m thinking about the past, it’s dead and gone. 

When we realise the payoff to be present is so much richer, things move fast. 

You can be present in the boat on the ocean, you can also be present ten foot under water, you can also be present 4 miles under water at the bottom of the ocean. Each of these you are in the ocean, but they are all very different experiences. Mine the dept of the present moment.

Keep mining presence, stillness, especially in the pain and darkness. Follow your instinct, stay the fuck out of your mind. Click here for a short video on Inner Body Awareness. 

Liberation

Far more than any other experience, my own liberation I seek. My attention is increasingly being brought back to my body, my senses, and in that, surges of kundalini energy, eyes rolling back in my head, downloads and upgrades that seem to be flushing out my nervous system, grant me increasing power and centredness in my masculine, deeper alignment of my sexual energy, and quite simply far less need to escape the present moment. 

The weather is brutal here at the moment, I’m still living in my car, but I’m freer than I have ever felt in my life. That’s not to say I’m free, far from it, there is plenty of work ahead for me. But I see more and more beauty and gratitude in each moment, and less and less need to fantasize about a different, “better” life. 

Shift To Now

As I ground down deeper into what I’m being presented with right now, even in the seemingly (because it’s only perception) coldest, darkest moments, I see the how my appreciation and connection with others deepens even further. The more I’m at home with me, the more present I can be with you.

When I’m at peace with my Self, I’m at peace with the world.

(I run an 8 week Shadow Integration Course for men and women, for further details on this work click here for the women’s page. Men’s page under construction, feel free to get in touch for details)