what chaos looks like

The last week has been a (perfect) mess, I feel I’m wading through oil at times. To give you an idea of how I ended up here, what it looks like, and how I get through it, read on.

  1. In the past five weeks I have taken part in a Kambo ceremony (Shamanic frog medicine, not for the feint of heart). I really felt my heart open in the week after this, as always there is a price to a deeper love, and that is being the release of pain, grief, vulnerability.
  2. The following week I had a holotropic breathwork session. I already knew I was wide open, and breathwork took me another layer deeper. In the days after I was very aware of how vulnerable I was, emotional, rocky. It was this week that I met the woman I understand who was my daughter and wife in previous lives. You can listen to that story here. 
  3. Seven days after breathwork I had an ayahuasca ceremony, my 10th. This was a powerful night, although quite hard work. The medicine is not a breeze, has never been for me, it’s hard going at times. Again I was aware in the days after how rocky and emotional I was, and needed to mind myself, take care of myself.

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